Thesis & Kiki

Dang! This semester is kicking my behind.

I’m hanging in there…. barely. Very much looking forward to Thanksgiving so I can have a break.

Received some bad news about my father’s estate. Can’t believe we’re coming up on 2 years and this person is still causing all this trouble. I can’t even imagine what it will be like when I get to grieve my dad properly.

I am happy I am going to Sierra Leone for Christmas. I know we say our loved ones are always with us, and I do believe he is, to some extent. I just feel like his energy will be stronger in his resting place. That’s his home. I have a hard time with him not being buried in a place I can go visit regularly.

It’s crazy that there’s only 6 more until the end of the year. 😐

Lenzman and Submorphics played this Calibre on the most recent Echobox Radio show and I forgot how much I love this tune. Gonna have to put it in rotation for a bit. πŸ₯°

Currently listening to some Redeyes and reading research articles.

Toodles for now.

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It’s my birthday today. 46.

I didn’t have to work today, so that’s nice.

It’s the small things that make me feel sad. I always looked forward to my dad’s bday calls. He was always so excited for me. πŸ’Ÿ

These in-between birthdays aren’t that eventful. When I hit 50, then I’ll woop it up.

I’m going out for a nice meal with two of my friends tonight. Good company and a piece of cake is enough for me these days. πŸ₯°

Currently listening to some En:vy and Particle.

100m-Dash Kiki

I’m 45 and still constantly surprised by how fast time flies. You would think I’d be used to it by now.

August starts on Monday. My dad’s birthday is on the 8th. It’s already been a year and 8 months since he passed. I think about him daily. There are still so many annoyances affecting the closure of his estate, which sucks, but I’ve unlocked a new level of processing those feelings with the help of therapy, so that’s good. Having him buried in another country is difficult for me. I would like to be able to visit him whenever I want, so I’m very much looking forward to going to Sierra Leone this December and getting to do that.

This summer has just been busy. Loads of work ish and summer semester of grad school. I’m finishing up my 3rd semester of a 5 semester program. I’m enjoying it. It’s definitely a different experience when it’s your 2nd master’s.

So much good dnb this summer! πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯° Here’s some tunes I’ve been loving:

Submorphics. He’s not only my friend, but I’m also a massive fan. We’ve been friends for about 18 years now and I still listen to his tunes on the regular.

More North Quarter selections. What can I say, their catalogue is just my vibe. 😊 Love this FD EP.

I’ve also been listening to a lot of Tyrone. I’m late to the Tyrone party. Totally wasn’t familiar with him. His tunes just always show up in my Spotify daily mix. I stan. Good stuff. 😍

Now & Forever Kiki

Summer is just speeding on. I saw Lenzman a couple of weeks ago and it was so so dope. I love being able to go out and see dnb again. I had such a good time.

I was listening to Calibre’s remix of Klute’s Now, Always, Forever on the walk home from the bar, and man, that Calibre era had such a chokehold on me. Such a great remix.

My school moved, so I’ve been busy with that. Still kicking it. Still missing my dad. Still slaving over grad school homework. Still listening to a ridiculous amount of dnb. 😊

Hope you all are well.

I really enjoyed this month’s BankBeats. πŸ₯°

Enjoy!

Total Science – Squash (Break Rmx)
Command Stranbe – Krusty Fingers
FD – Double Dribble
Halftone – Camouflage
Lens – Feels Like
nCamargo – Cherished
Pandora – Let Me See
High Contrast – Passon (BOP Rmx)
DuoScience – Dawns
Phaction, Stormae – What you Need
Mountain, Kojo – I’m Free (Hugh Hardie Rmx)
Mino Forms – Late Funk
Shodan – Infused
MELONYX – Energy (Zero T Rmx)
Motiv – Jupiter
FD – Sails
Berth, Hiraeth – Loved and Lost
Duoscience – Lucidity
Random Movement – Get the Funk Otta This Room
Phaction – Revelation Sequence
Bungle – Segment
Bredren – Grim Reaper
Dave Owen, Terraform – Sweet Love
High Contrast – Return of Forever (Camo and Crooked Rmx)
Syncline – The Big Easy
Random Movement – Still Aint Changed (Ben Soundscape Rmx)
Centrik – Beloved (Phaction Rmx)
Halftone – Maneuvers
Bungle- Tunnels
Command Strange, Cnof – Blossom
Dash – Dopamine Drums
In:Most – Domino Effect
NC:17 – Out of Sight
High Contrast – Make It Tonight (VIP)
Dave Owen, Terraform – Nautlilus
Monument Banks – An Evening With
Motiv – Out of Air
Fishy, Viewer – Around the Globe
Viewer – How It Feels
Tatora – PR8LMZ
High Contrast – Expose (AI Rmx)
Rizzle – Run To You
Pyxis, Melinki, Oktae – Your Sunshine
TZ – Native
Viewer – Thank You
TZ, Edlan – Blue Water
Dave Owen, Terraform – CrossRhodes
High Contrast – Music is Everything (Pola & Bryson Rmx)
Audioholic – Bottlerockets
Acen – Trip to the Moon (Danny Byrd Rmx)
hyroglifics – Bay City Ballers
Ivy Lab – 20 Questions
Marcus Intalex – Temperance
Nu:Tone – Beatnik
Satl – Turn Me On (Feat. Command Strange)
Break – Love So True
Hugh Hardie, Silence Groove – City Soul
Machinedrum – Backseat Ho

Summertide Kiki

And just like that it’s June.

I survived my second semester of grad school. This second go is a little more difficult as I’m working in my career, and the last time I was just working in a bar. I am enjoying it though.

Still dealing with issues from beneficiaries and my father’s estate. It’s been a year and a half since he passed. I really will be happy when it’s over and I can just grieve and memorialize him in peace.

Getting some work done and listening to this Askel & Elere mix.

Tracklist

01. Necrotype – Mabel (Silent Dust Remix) [Modern Conveniences]
02. Askel & Elere – Better Time [Soulvent]
03. Majestim – Departure [Glitch Audio]
04. Calibre – Existing [31]
05. Framer & Dava – Closer To You [Transparent Audio]
06. Halogenix – Don’t You Know [Critical]
07. Naibu – Tigresse [Fokuz]
08. Askel & Elere ft. Degs – 42 (Circumference Remix) [Soulvent]
09. Mineral – Aural Destination [Straight Up Breakbeat]
10. Silent Dust – 1959 (Calibre Remix) [none60]
11. Unglued ft. Esther Durin – Way Back When (Halogenix Remix) [Hospital]
12. Seba – Crockett [Secret Operations]
13. Seba – Painted Skies (Eastcolors Remix) [not on label]
14. ID
15. Dedman – Looking Back [Rebel Music]
16. Phaction ft. Stormae – What U Need [Fokuz]
17. Loxy & Resound – Leagues Deep (AM94 Remix) [Absys]
18. Phil Tangent – Querencia [Fokuz]
19. Komatic – Seasons Sleep [Rubik]
20. Askel & Elere x Winslow – Taking Forever [Soulvent]
21. ID
22. Crate Classics & Catching Cairo – Ghost Mode (In:Most Remix) [Soulvent]
23. ID
24. Mitekiss – FromU [Hospital]
25. Degs – Still Messed Up [Hospital]
26. Horde – Airframe [Onyx]
27. Logistics – Murderation [Hospital]
28. Askel & Elere x Unglued ft. PAV4N – Off Angle [Soulvent]

Spring Kiki

March just flew by! I’m happy to get a little reprieve these next couple of weeks. I’m on spring break from grad school and my evening school this week and will be on break from teaching at the community college next week. Gonna go hang with my homie Shannon in San Diego for a couple of days and just kick it.

This month has had me a bit all over the place mentally. Loads to sort out with my dad’s estate… still. Grief is such a strange process. I don’t remember thinking about him this much when he was alive. It’s been a year and some change, and even though I have learned to deal with the sadness a little better, I still think about him all day, every day. I wonder what the next stage of the grieving process will bring and when it will arrive. πŸ˜”

Anyway, I’m so happy I came across SirReal again. I used to listen to his mixes all the time. He always comes with the great track selection and beautiful blends. My students at the community college have exams today, so I’m just listening to his 2021 year end mix and finishing up writing the test.

Enjoy.

Tracklist

Dogger & Mindstate – Wake You Up feat DRS
Tyrone – Misconceptions
Visages – About You feat Laville (Alix Perez Remix)
Lenzman & Redeyes – Hold Tight Girl
Makoto – Run It Back To Me feat KSR
Pola & Bryson – Wild Rises
Nymfo – Reflections feat Riya
Ivy Lab – Options
Riya, Collette Warren & Visages – Sliding Doors
BCee & Darrison – So Right (LSB Remix)
Monty – I Knew So fear Eva Mango
Calibre – Roga Funk
Disrupta & Duskee – Blue Moon
LIN000 (Satl & FD) – LIN002
Redeyes & DRS – Lost Connections
Tyrone – City Lights
Motiv & Collette Warren – Cloak & Dagger
LSB & DRS – Faded (Calibre Remix)
Alexx A-Game – Braver (Satl Remix)
Sustance & Visages – I’ll Be There
Redeyes & Lenzman – Gotta Change
HLZ – Orbit
Krust – It’s A Lot (Calibre Remix)
Pola & Bryon – Anaesthetist feat Strategy
Calibre – Wetter
FD – Lie To You feat Akemi Fox (GLXY Remix)
Pola & Bryson – Get Serious
Sustance – Virtue
Technimatic – Gravity Rising
Alix Perez – Moving On feat Liam Bailey (Break Remix)

Spanners & Kiki

I’m not going to get too in to it, but people derailing your grieving process sucks. I’m just taking everything in stride. My dad has been gone for 1 year and there are still people taking actions that hinder me from getting closure. It’s definitely not fun. I’ve moved on from crying because I’m sad to crying because I’m angry. Is that growth? πŸ™ƒ

My new position at work has me back to working 8 hour days. I’m enjoying it, but I’m trying to get used to working at home 8 hours a day. When we first went to WFH, I was furloughed and only teaching part time in the evening. I spent my days as I pleased and had more than enough time to prep for my evening classes. Now I’m back in grad school and working from home full time. I fully understand that others have been trying to find this balance for the last 2 years. I’m new to the game though, so my time management definitely needs a little tweaking. I’m working on it.

I’m listening to old old old old old Andy C mixes. It’s funny to be doing serious work and be sitting at my desk full on raving with the volume at 100% at 10 am.

This came on and it made me really happy. This tune is 22 years old. 😲

Ooh La La Kiki

January done. School started again. I forgot about how you get long ass holidays when you’re at university. I def enjoyed my month off.

Up late. Thinking about my dad. Listening to some Alix Perez while I do some homework.

Alix Perez has a monthly on Rinse FM. This mix made all my French dnb dreams come true. I’ve listened to it loads already. So many great tunes as well as a guest mix from Monty and Visages?! Inscrivez-moi!

2022 & Kiki

2021 gone. The year seemed extremely long and not long at all.

I spent my dad’s 1 year memorial with my mum. I don’t want to get too eerie and weird, but I do feel like he came to hang out with me that day. I just felt his presence quite strongly. That’s all I’ll say about that. 😐

I get the feeling he is doing well and definitely resting in peace. He’s buried with my grandparents and all his siblings and I feel immense comfort knowing that.

Back in LA now. I got a new position at work and am busy all the time. I’m not complaining, it’s just vastly different from how I spent the majority of my 2021. πŸ˜‚

Listening to Echo Brown.

California Kiki

Back in LA. Looks like I left London at the right time, as the temp started dropping and a new variant wanting some attention. I lived in the Midwest for over 20 years, and 4 years in LA has made me forget what life in negative temps is like. πŸ˜‚ That damp wet cold that showed up in London when I was leaving had me acting a straight fool. You would think I never experienced walking to the train with prickly cold cheeks as the wind made me cry.

I do feel a little less anxious about my dad’s estate. There’s still a long road ahead, as there’s still a lot of unfinished business, but it’s nice to get a little more clarity and closure on the house sitch.

It’ll be 1 year since he died in a couple of weeks, and it’s been hard that it’s taken this long to sort some of these things out. I have an amazing support network and I just have to trust that everything will work out like it needs to.

Planning some lessons for my classes that I have to teach tonight, after not having taught in almost 6 weeks. πŸ™ƒ

This Flowanastasia and Nymfo hitting a little too on the nose for me today. πŸ˜‚

Also really vibin’ to this Break remix.