I survived my second semester of grad school. This second go is a little more difficult as I’m working in my career, and the last time I was just working in a bar. I am enjoying it though.
Still dealing with issues from beneficiaries and my father’s estate. It’s been a year and a half since he passed. I really will be happy when it’s over and I can just grieve and memorialize him in peace.
Getting some work done and listening to this Askel & Elere mix.
01. Necrotype – Mabel (Silent Dust Remix) [Modern Conveniences] 02. Askel & Elere – Better Time [Soulvent] 03. Majestim – Departure [Glitch Audio] 04. Calibre – Existing  05. Framer & Dava – Closer To You [Transparent Audio] 06. Halogenix – Don’t You Know [Critical] 07. Naibu – Tigresse [Fokuz] 08. Askel & Elere ft. Degs – 42 (Circumference Remix) [Soulvent] 09. Mineral – Aural Destination [Straight Up Breakbeat] 10. Silent Dust – 1959 (Calibre Remix) [none60] 11. Unglued ft. Esther Durin – Way Back When (Halogenix Remix) [Hospital] 12. Seba – Crockett [Secret Operations] 13. Seba – Painted Skies (Eastcolors Remix) [not on label] 14. ID 15. Dedman – Looking Back [Rebel Music] 16. Phaction ft. Stormae – What U Need [Fokuz] 17. Loxy & Resound – Leagues Deep (AM94 Remix) [Absys] 18. Phil Tangent – Querencia [Fokuz] 19. Komatic – Seasons Sleep [Rubik] 20. Askel & Elere x Winslow – Taking Forever [Soulvent] 21. ID 22. Crate Classics & Catching Cairo – Ghost Mode (In:Most Remix) [Soulvent] 23. ID 24. Mitekiss – FromU [Hospital] 25. Degs – Still Messed Up [Hospital] 26. Horde – Airframe [Onyx] 27. Logistics – Murderation [Hospital] 28. Askel & Elere x Unglued ft. PAV4N – Off Angle [Soulvent]
March just flew by! I’m happy to get a little reprieve these next couple of weeks. I’m on spring break from grad school and my evening school this week and will be on break from teaching at the community college next week. Gonna go hang with my homie Shannon in San Diego for a couple of days and just kick it.
This month has had me a bit all over the place mentally. Loads to sort out with my dad’s estate… still. Grief is such a strange process. I don’t remember thinking about him this much when he was alive. It’s been a year and some change, and even though I have learned to deal with the sadness a little better, I still think about him all day, every day. I wonder what the next stage of the grieving process will bring and when it will arrive. 😔
Anyway, I’m so happy I came across SirReal again. I used to listen to his mixes all the time. He always comes with the great track selection and beautiful blends. My students at the community college have exams today, so I’m just listening to his 2021 year end mix and finishing up writing the test.
Dogger & Mindstate – Wake You Up feat DRS Tyrone – Misconceptions Visages – About You feat Laville (Alix Perez Remix) Lenzman & Redeyes – Hold Tight Girl Makoto – Run It Back To Me feat KSR Pola & Bryson – Wild Rises Nymfo – Reflections feat Riya Ivy Lab – Options Riya, Collette Warren & Visages – Sliding Doors BCee & Darrison – So Right (LSB Remix) Monty – I Knew So fear Eva Mango Calibre – Roga Funk Disrupta & Duskee – Blue Moon LIN000 (Satl & FD) – LIN002 Redeyes & DRS – Lost Connections Tyrone – City Lights Motiv & Collette Warren – Cloak & Dagger LSB & DRS – Faded (Calibre Remix) Alexx A-Game – Braver (Satl Remix) Sustance & Visages – I’ll Be There Redeyes & Lenzman – Gotta Change HLZ – Orbit Krust – It’s A Lot (Calibre Remix) Pola & Bryon – Anaesthetist feat Strategy Calibre – Wetter FD – Lie To You feat Akemi Fox (GLXY Remix) Pola & Bryson – Get Serious Sustance – Virtue Technimatic – Gravity Rising Alix Perez – Moving On feat Liam Bailey (Break Remix)
I’m not going to get too in to it, but people derailing your grieving process sucks. I’m just taking everything in stride. My dad has been gone for 1 year and there are still people taking actions that hinder me from getting closure. It’s definitely not fun. I’ve moved on from crying because I’m sad to crying because I’m angry. Is that growth? 🙃
My new position at work has me back to working 8 hour days. I’m enjoying it, but I’m trying to get used to working at home 8 hours a day. When we first went to WFH, I was furloughed and only teaching part time in the evening. I spent my days as I pleased and had more than enough time to prep for my evening classes. Now I’m back in grad school and working from home full time. I fully understand that others have been trying to find this balance for the last 2 years. I’m new to the game though, so my time management definitely needs a little tweaking. I’m working on it.
I’m listening to old old old old old Andy C mixes. It’s funny to be doing serious work and be sitting at my desk full on raving with the volume at 100% at 10 am.
This came on and it made me really happy. This tune is 22 years old. 😲
January done. School started again. I forgot about how you get long ass holidays when you’re at university. I def enjoyed my month off.
Up late. Thinking about my dad. Listening to some Alix Perez while I do some homework.
Alix Perez has a monthly on Rinse FM. This mix made all my French dnb dreams come true. I’ve listened to it loads already. So many great tunes as well as a guest mix from Monty and Visages?! Inscrivez-moi!
2021 gone. The year seemed extremely long and not long at all.
I spent my dad’s 1 year memorial with my mum. I don’t want to get too eerie and weird, but I do feel like he came to hang out with me that day. I just felt his presence quite strongly. That’s all I’ll say about that. 😐
I get the feeling he is doing well and definitely resting in peace. He’s buried with my grandparents and all his siblings and I feel immense comfort knowing that.
Back in LA now. I got a new position at work and am busy all the time. I’m not complaining, it’s just vastly different from how I spent the majority of my 2021. 😂
Back in LA. Looks like I left London at the right time, as the temp started dropping and a new variant wanting some attention. I lived in the Midwest for over 20 years, and 4 years in LA has made me forget what life in negative temps is like. 😂 That damp wet cold that showed up in London when I was leaving had me acting a straight fool. You would think I never experienced walking to the train with prickly cold cheeks as the wind made me cry.
I do feel a little less anxious about my dad’s estate. There’s still a long road ahead, as there’s still a lot of unfinished business, but it’s nice to get a little more clarity and closure on the house sitch.
It’ll be 1 year since he died in a couple of weeks, and it’s been hard that it’s taken this long to sort some of these things out. I have an amazing support network and I just have to trust that everything will work out like it needs to.
Planning some lessons for my classes that I have to teach tonight, after not having taught in almost 6 weeks. 🙃
This Flowanastasia and Nymfo hitting a little too on the nose for me today. 😂
Still in London. Still got heaps to sort out with the house. I’ve kind of developed a routine, so the process of going through all my dad’s stuff, albeit repetitive, has become a little easier. I had to sort out his clothes the other day though and that broke me. I have also somewhat figured what I need to do to get the house emptied and ready to be sold, and I’m still doing all my school assignments. Basically, I’m hanging in there. 🙃
Me and Kathy are going to see the homie Submorphics this weekend. I’m very much looking forward to this show: a) It will be great to see Greg! b) We all know how much I love Lenzman. c) The whole lineup is actually great and d) I haven’t been to a show in almost 2 years!
Ideally I’d post a North Quarter tune, but I’ve been listening to this Tatora & Satl on repeat for the past couple of days, so I think I should share that instead. 🥰
So I made it here safe. Thankfully the COVID travel process for fully vaccinated was stress-free which really lifted a lot of the anxiety with coming here. When I was going to Sierra Leone for my dad’s funeral, the whole test process added to the grief and was a complete nightmare.
I had a huge assignment due for school, so I spent all week working on that and didn’t really see anyone. I only spent one day at the house going through Dad’s things. It was quite emotional going to the house and having him not be there. I did find some letters that he had saved from me and my siblings from when we first moved to America. They were very sweet and funny. I love that he saved them.
It’s rainy and I’m just lazing around listening to some DLR and reading this week’s chapters.
I’ve never been a person that cared about getting older, and I still don’t. But, 45 does sound old as hell. 😂
I’m missing my dad today. His birthday calls were always so sweet. 💜
I love those days when Spotify just gets you. I’ve been learning how to use Storyline to create learning objects, and you know how learning any program goes; I spent like 5 hours zoning out to dnb and trying my damndest to get all my triggers, layers, hotspots etc to work. The radio station based of my playlist was straight 🔥🔥🔥. Heard a bunch of “new to me” tunes.
I know nothing about Italian dnb. This is my first timing hearing these guys and I loved the whole EP.
I know who In:Most is, but didn’t really start listening to their stuff until last year. Found this old tune from 2017 and I’m loving it.
I also know of Athena. Hadn’t heard this track before though. It came out earlier this year. Such a pretty tune.
That emoji is my current mental state. I’m not sad, I’m just trying to make it through the day. I think since I booked my ticket and know that I’ll be headed to London soon, anxiety wants to kick it with me all damn day and I’m like “Okay, I guess you can come.”
Anyway, I’m listening to a Bank mix and lesson planning and he played this amazing oldie.
I haven’t listened to this track in ages. Such a lovely tune. Hope you enjoy hearing it as much as I did.
SKG, Vektah – Humdrum Zero T, Need For Mirrors – Liar Liar Satl – Never Far Krust – It’s A Lot (Calibre Rmx) GEST – Shame Dustkey – Over the Moon Dunk – Electric Lady Ink, Loxy – Skitzaphonic Sustance, Visages – I’ll Be There Lupo – Retrograde Black Barrel – I Love You GEST – Deja Vu Artsea – Finding Solace Black Barrel – Bad Trip Conrad Subs – Tape Packs and Speaker Stacks Benny Page, Skibadee – Ride Finnadrift – Vibin At The Track Dylan, Ink – Need You (Calibre Rmx) Kojo, Pola & Bryson – Closer to Home Low:r – Love Hearts Makoto, Ruth Royall – New Love Satl – Give Up Zero T, Aaliyah Espirit – Something Got Me Joliliffe – Between The Spaces Operate, Duskee, Degs – Diamonds Satl – Takeshi Synkro – Gagaku (Frederic Robinson Rmx) Echo Brown – Block Work (VIP) Mystific – Morally Alive Mystic, Confusious – Like This Artsea – Path to Never Tokyo Prose, Satl – Hazards Drs, Satl – Beautiful Struggle Fixate – Hold That Thought Influx Datum – Dayz of Glory Dub FX – Run (Random Movement Rmx) dBridge – Inner Disbelief Commix – Trojan Bungle – Northern Dub Break – Time After Time Bachelors of Science – The Ice Dance (Lenzman Rmx) Air.K, Cephei – Desire (Break Rmx) Goldie – Truth (Zero T Rmx) Mutt – The Motions SpectraSoul – Silence (Feat. LSB) Rowpieces – Sweetish Phase 2 – Kiana Monika – Freedom Legion & Logam – When Stars Fall Kredit – Coincidence Krakota, Urbandawn – Laguna Kasper – Scorsese Halogenix – Shank FD – Top 2 Bottom Dustkey, Petroll – Blow Fire dRamatic, Command Strange – Try To Understand (L-Side Rmx) Carl Matthes, Tyler Straub – Avani